I've been having dreams lately where I win the zombie apocalypse, it's a nice break from my normal PTSD flashbacks and sleeping panic attacks. Usually I am doing it with one of my really good friends J. It's bittersweet, because I haven't been able to see him in a while as life move people in separate directions and to new states all the time in my world.
It sucks when you live states away from the people you care about, it sucks more when you rarely get to see your friends who live down the street, or well any where within an hour radius. I miss being a kid a seeing my friends every day on the bus or in school sometimes, I even miss working, and wish I could again, but the debilitating panic attacks that come from being around men I don't trust are insane, I get them at the grocery store,or driving, without prolonged exposure. Life is complicated with it's curve balls sometimes isn't it.
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