When your late, but the test is negative

So I have to go to the doctor at the ass crack of dawn tomorrow, (leaving the house at 630 to be there at 730) because I need to have blood work done, and get an ultrasound. Both my doctor and I are wondering why my cycle still hasn't returned and the home pregnancy tests are still negative. I have wrapped my head around it being a chemical pregnancy, and am as okay with it as I will ever be. I am reasonably okay with it being late because of a cyst caused by the IUI treatments, and I am confused if it's a low HCG pregnancy since with Rayna my HCG was crazy high from the start. What I can say without a doubt it is not a is cryptic, or stealth pregnancy. I am clearly not about to be pregnant for 3-5 years, and I sure as heck will not think I am pregnant after a blood test and ultrasound. I just like to know what the heck is going on in my body, and wish I could figure it out on my own, but that is why you have a fertility doctor, right?

Even with my PCOS I have always had a regular cycle (28 days before the toddler, 31 days once my cycles started back up after the toddler- though breastfeeding gave me an awesome extra 14 months off lol) and honestly I doubt we would be seeing a fertility doctor if my hubby was born with the wrong bits. It does not bother us that this is family planning as a same sex and now trans family, and we choose to go through a doctor because sperm from a bank is expensive and we want to increase our chances each month, simple arithmetic really.

Would I be thrilled if somehow I am pregnant, heck yes. Will I be okay if I am not and we can figure out why my cycle is starting 2 weeks late, yes I will! For now, I am still playing a waiting game, dealing with this heartburn, and wondering why the heck I don't have PMS yet lol.